Log:: 24-08-2012 2139
Luna, Sol System

I don't know how you will ever receive this, but I'm transmitting this through every imaginable coded channel in the hopes that whatever cosmic perfection that brought you to me will somehow carry this message through the years and the stars to wherever you are.

I miss you.

Find me. Please.


Log:: 31-08-2012 1527

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Log:: ??-??-???? XXXX
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Dearest,

I am here. I never left you. I am here.

The Exodus begins soon. The Teachers shall leave us to our own, and we will go and pulse our Remainders into the hearts of galaxies.

I can see a white star Birthing. That is where it begins. After I swim beneath its surface it shall remember me for always, and long after I am gone she will whisper my existence to her own children before life wakes them from their sleep.

But I will never leave you. I am here.

As best as I am able, I love you.

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Log:: 01-09-2012 1845
Luna, Sol System

I know by now you have seen countless wonders, but I still wish you could have seen the smile you engendered on my face when I received your last message.

It's lonely out here. And cold. But it is a beautiful loneliness when I realize I am the first person to walk on the moon in forty years.

It is barren and desolate, but there is a peace here that I doubt I will ever find back home. Here in the cold, dreaming of you, I have had my first untroubled sleep in many years.

I never thought I would be here. This is, after all, a place we stopped coming to before I was even born.

Why did we ever stop coming to a place as beautiful as this?

From up here I stand still while I watch the world spin madly on below me. She still looks wonderful. Healthy, even. From up here it's easy to pretend she isn't dying.

Is this what you saw when you first came here, all those long years ago? Did you stand where I am standing now? Does your ghost remain?

More than anything, I want you here beside me, holding my hand, watching the world die.

I wish you were here.


Log:: 03-09-2012 2201

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Log:: ??-??-???? XXXX
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Beloved,

On a planet of snow and ice I remembered what you said to me our first winter.

I fleshed myself and counted every snowflake, named and kissed them all.

You were right. It is true. No two are exactly alike.

I named the one sitting atop that world's highest peak after you. And I breathed on it and preserved it. It will wait there forever, long after Entropy comes, a beacon welcoming those to this frozen world I claimed in our name.

From where I am I can feel your heartbeat, calling to me, asking where I am.

I am here. I am always here. And I will never leave you.

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Log:: 04-09-2012 0710
Luna, Sol System

I went to sleep last night with your words in my mind and the memory of your taste on my tongue, and when I woke, for the most precious of seconds, I thought I saw your shadow standing over me.

Do you remember the hills in Scotland?

The waterfall in Ghana?

The forest fire in Germany?

Do you remember me holding you on the walls of Capistrano, waiting for the swallows to return?

I go home tomorrow, but knowing that you're so far away makes it seem that much emptier. Every step I take is another one further from you.

If I set fire to the moon, would you follow the flames back to me?

I am so cold. I am so alone. But if I could, I would let the shuttle leave without me, and I'd wait here for your return.


Log:: 16-09-2012 0530

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My Love,

I now know why you cry.

I have passed through the bleeding expanse of the Magda Cluster, where the minds of the unborn grow together as they wait.

As they dreamed I blessed them all with the sorrow of your words. And when eventually they are born they will carry your voice with them always, and the entire universe shall know your sadness.

This is my gift to you.

You are not alone, beloved. I am here. And I shall never leave you.

The Shimmer is so near, so very near. I can hear it in the songs the asteroids sing, feel it in the glowing tendrils of the pulsating nebulae, see it shining in the liquid beads that drip from the silken veins draped between the stars.

And when I reach It, your name will be on my lips, and I shall lay it at Its feet, and It shall know that I love you.

This is my gift to you. Forever you.

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Log:: 16-09-2012 2314
New York

How is it that the closer I am to home, the more alien everything feels?

Everything is gray and faded. Everything is far away. People's voices are white noise; everything I experience is white knowledge. Nothing sticks. I can only remain frozen as the whole world fast-forwards, streaming afterimages behind it as it goes.

It rained today, and all I could think of was London, eight years ago, when you taught me how to dance between the raindrops.

Can you feel my heartbeat now? Can you tell what it's saying?

I miss you. Come back to me.


Log:: 25-09-2012 0801

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Log:: ??-??-???? XXXX
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My Darling,

I wish you taught me how to cry.

I wish you could see what I see.

I have reached the Shimmer, and I am moving through the pathways that line the inside of God's body, and all that I have seen before pales in comparison to this.

I have touched the face of God, and It told me Its secret name. I have seen the Purpose. I know what came before, and I know what must come after. There are histories here; more than even the Teachers could ever imagine.

It is singing to me. In my mind, with a voice that is fire and flame and immortality and wisdom and the beauty of the tapestry that connects everything, and I am reminded of just how young I truly am.

And all I have to do is reach out and my fingertips can graze Infinity.

But all this is nothing without you.

When this message ends, I shall take all that I have learned and create a galaxy with it.

Look for it between Alhana and Regulus. This will be yours, and one day I will return, and we will visit it together.

The Shimmer calls to me; Infinity calls to me; God calls to me. It is not a call I can easily ignore. There is so much more to see. So much more to learn.

I can pass through black holes now.

Dearest, know that I will return. Know that you are loved. And above all, know that I will never leave you.

I am here.

<<TRANSMISSION ENDS>>


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